Tonight

Tonight I sat with my kids, a broken man. Trying to show them the love they deserve, but my hearts is weighted down so heavy it makes it hard.

Almost seems they would be better without me there, while I’m like this.

And then I stupidly tried to talk with the one woman who owns my heart, and her phone was still more important than hearing how I felt.

Whenever I feel like I’m going to get back to being me, I see her and feel the dagger pierce my heart again

I’m going to see how many beers I can drink, to clear my head.

Maybe I’ll write on here again…….