life is about the moments.

I hope she is back the way I remember her, the woman I fell so deeply in love with, the one I have fought the world to be with.

I don’t know if we will ever be together again, but as much heartache she has put me thru, she with always be my forever and always.

The thoughts of her races thru my mind ever night, the embrace of her arms can still be felt on my body.

My mind tortures my heart every moment of my life, my lips long to be with hers again, yet my mind tells me to leave her be, but my heart can’t wait to see her again.

It’s hard for me to express how deeply I feel about her, and then I feel burdened by how deeply she has tortured and hurt me.

But I don’t care, I don’t care if everyone I’ve ever know hates me and never speaks to me again, I don’t care if everyone tells me how stupid I am for loving her, and I don’t care if she leaves me yet again. All for that one moment to be the one in her eyes yet again, even if only for a moment.

We only life for that one moment of life that makes everything in your life feel right, and everyday with her is that moment to me.

I can never forgive myself for not showing how much I truly love her, and how deep my feeling go for her. And that is my burden in life to bear.

But because of how I feel about her, Is why I will never give up on her, why she still has a hold on every piece of my shattered heart.

That’s why I hold onto the hope that someday I will be good enough for her, someday that family I gave her will be enough for her to find her happiness in life.

Because all I ever wanted is for her to find happiness , even if that doesn’t include me…….but will forever and always love her till my dying breath.