hope?

I spent the day with my family, had a blast enjoying life, instead of the hiccups or life.

And then the evening with the woman of my dreams.

After talking about anything with her, I feel closer to her than I ever have in my life, yet still so far away from her heart.

I even told her I am fighting the urge to pull her close and kiss her, not for the missing the feel of her sweet lips against mine, but to feel if the spark is still there in her.

The my spark for her will always haunt my dreams, and torment my days.

I love this woman deeper that I had known I could have for any woman, after my lifetime of being used and tossed aside

But she gives me hope and happiness, and I will never in my lifetime take her for grated again.

But my hopes of a next time still seem bleak, but I hope one day she sees me as I have always seen her.

And if that day comes, I want to relearn everything about this woman, I want to know her dreams and desires. I want to give her a life she can be proud of, give her a lifetime of happiness and memories.

But I will never repeat the mistakes I’ve made in my life, and want to take her on dates, I want to send her flowers to work, and surprise notes she gets to find to brighten her days.

I want to take ever moment I have with her to show her how I truly feel, and take my time to grow our hearts so close together, that we become one perfect union of happiness.

One can hope!