Another day

I don’t know what she wants from me…..

When I was opening up and close to her, she would constantly remind me we are only friends.

When I close myself down from her she posts about how much she misses being with me, and how she still loves me.

I hope she knows I’m not just going to sit around forever waiting to see how she feels about me next week.

I love her more than I ever knew I could love someone, but can’t keep throwing my heart into the blender of not knowing.

I hope and pray that for her heart to be one with mine again, but not gonna get my hopes up for something that may never happen.

So here I sit emotionless, not really caring anymore about anything.

I still have plans for my future, just losing hope for who I thought would be in it with me.

At least with no emotions I can think clearly about what I have to do with my life…..