One day at a time!

I’m feeling happy again, happier than I’ve been in years.

Mostly cause I feel like I’m getting closer to Natalie that we have been in years, and it is an amazing feeling.

We still have a long way to go, to get to know each other more and to connect on an even better emotional level.

And I’m hoping we can get to a place where we can talk face to face about our emotions and our thoughts, instead of writing them on here to each other, but that’s something we both need to work on together, and until we are both ready I kinda like writing on here lol.

I’m excited she has her therapy appointment soon, to get the meds to help her and then mine is coming up next month to help me. Maybe soon we can schedule a couples therapy, so we can learn how to better communicate with each other.

But as far as I’m concerned, I don’t want anyone else in my life but Natalie and to make that happen I am willing to forget our past, because I want to make a lifetime of memories and moments for our future.

I don’t think we are bad living together, I think we have just been stuck in bad situations that have put too much stress on us and cause us to lash out at the only other person we have to rely on.

My current goal is to be a better dad for my children, and eventually be a better husband. Because those 4 people are the most important in my life, and I want to be the best I can be for them and for me.

And hun if you are reading this there is only one thing bugging me, you keep making posts for him to read and it kind of hurts me. Because he is still holding a place in your mind, whether it’s based on love or hate, he is still on your mind, and I want us to get him completely out of our lives and not let him ruin our family anymore.

And right now I’m in protect mode, cause he has vandalized our home, and I’m worried how far I will go if I catch him at my home, military taught me how to kill, and right now he is the enemy and a threat to my family, And I take that very seriously.

But enough about that dumbass, I feel great and started jogging again too, my goal is to get back into shape, to do more activities with my family. And hopefully quit smoking this year.

I think that’s enough for one day, so I should get to work instead of sitting on my ass at work lol ✌🏻 💩🖕🏻😝