Better

I am in a happy place but still have my guard up, after everything I can’t drop it completely.

I wanted to marry her this year, but now I’m not sure how long to wait to see if history will repeat itself, god I hope that was the last time, I can’t take another.

Things are a lot better at home, still in separate rooms, what bothers me is cause her bullshit, I’m no longer in my sons room with him.

One thing that bothers me is she hasn’t posted us together on something as stupid as Facebook, so it honestly makes me feel as she does want anyone to know, she even got pissed when I posted it for a second.

I’m trying to trust her more, like by using my car for work, but the first time she used it she spent an extra 30 talking to the security guard after work. And I believe her, but she needs to look at stuff from my position, how do I know that’s was she was doing for 30mins and not something else…but I’m trusting her for our fresh start, I just don’t want a fresh start where she takes advantage of of my trust