Trying to trust

I don’t know why but I know you deleted your call logs the other week

I know your boss didn’t call you today when we were talking, if you didn’t wanna talk just say so.

And the fact that no one seems to text you anymore, or do you just delete the messages?

I’m trying my best to trust you, but things are being hidden, and subtle lies continuing.

When you are having a bad day you take it out on me, I’ve had a fucked up year so far and I don’t take it out on you.

So unless you are ready to be truthful about why the call logs were deleted and why there are never any new text messages.

I won’t be working on my forgiveness anymore, and put my wall back up, this new beginning is starting to look like the last ending already.

I told you from the beginning you have a lot of trust to earn back, you have hurt me more than I would ever think of doing to you, and I still forgave you, but the trust isn’t something I can give, that is something you have to work for.

And if this post pisses you off, then maybe this new beginning was a waste of time, because I’m posting this to make us better together with out all the distrust.