I am Sorry

I am sorry for not being there when you needed me most when it came to Awren, but I was still in a bad place and never mentally healed.

I am sorry for not being there for you enough while you were pregnant with Ethan, that was my own selfishness that I regret.

I am sorry for all the times I never showed you how much you truly mean to me, and how much I needed you in my life.

I am sorry for neglecting your needs and your dreams in life.

I am truly sorry that struggle after struggle we never seem to get on the same page as one another.

I am hurt as well from all these years, and no matter all the apologies you say, your actions show me different, and it’s in these actions that keep me from being able to heal and be the man you need me to be, and to be there for you when you need me.

I will never forgive myself for the neglect, and how I have treated you all these years, but I want you to know I do forgive you for all you have done to me.

You forever and always will hold the key to my damaged heart, and I hope someday I can heal it with you by my side.

This post isn’t an attempt to fix our relationship, but you are right I do owe you a lot of apologies for not loving you enough over the years.

And after this I will leave you alone, and I wish you nothing but love and happiness in your life, I know you have the will to fulfill all of your dreams.