Author Archives: thesudds13

I miss your hand in mine. I miss the look in your eyes, when I make you smile. I miss holding you thru the night, because you sleep so peacefully knowing your safe. I miss having fun wrestling around with you, because we both are at our happiness in that moment. I miss looking youContinue reading “I miss you”

I am truly lost in my life, I am trying to be strong for my children. But in honesty I can’t think right, all I can do is think about her day and night. I have constant nightmares, about seeing her with someone else. I truly wish my heart could move on like hers hasContinue reading “Lost”

I’ve had bad relationship one after another, always with unfaithful women. But with Natalie I have never felt so in love as I still do for her. Yes she has hurt me, but I have never given up on her. Why you ask, because my heart has never felt like this before. She is moreContinue reading “This is my choice”

I tired of being your safety net, and the doormat you get to wipe you feet on when your done with me. You have put more effort into secrets and relationships behind my back, than you are willing to put into this one. Fine, but don’t expect the door to my heart to ever openContinue reading “More lies”

My heart will always be yours, but right now it hurts so incredibly bad. What hurts the worst is I told you this would hurt me more than all the stuff I’ve forgiven you for. Yet it did not seem to matter, as long as “He” got his closure. Well I hope you feel betterContinue reading “Pain from my best friend, hurts the most 😢”

My love for you rides mountains,So many ups and downs, emotions soar.But one thing never changes,My love for you, I cannot ignore.There are days I feel this is too much,And I don’t know what to do.But let’s face it, who are we kidding,I want nothing else but you!

I am sorry for not being there when you needed me most when it came to Awren, but I was still in a bad place and never mentally healed. I am sorry for not being there for you enough while you were pregnant with Ethan, that was my own selfishness that I regret. I amContinue reading “I am Sorry”

I’m tired of being yelled at before I’m even fully awake I’m tired of being disrespected I’m tired of this life I am living And I’m tired of wondering if this relationship is real this time around I’ve have been putting forth the effort to make this relationship better, even tho I’m not the oneContinue reading “Can’t do this anymore”

I truly hate my existence, and wish it would end, instead of suffering the way I have been. I am tired of living this life of misery and emotional abuse, tonight you said somethings to me that I will never forget. And you lied about what you had done, and did something that I’m notContinue reading “😢”

I don’t know why but I know you deleted your call logs the other week I know your boss didn’t call you today when we were talking, if you didn’t wanna talk just say so. And the fact that no one seems to text you anymore, or do you just delete the messages? I’m tryingContinue reading “Trying to trust”