Author Archives: thesudds13

Laugh, even when you feel too sick or too worn out or tired. Smile, even when you’re trying not to cry and the tears are blurring your vision. Sing, even when people stare at you and tell you your voice is crappy. Trust, even when your heart begs you not to. Love, even when yourContinue reading “Keep going”

I’ve finally just decided to completely shut down my emotions today, I am tired of feeling hurt and used. Tonight seeing her didn’t even phase me, and it’s not a happy life to be emotionless but it’s better than being sad and depressed all day. I just hope I don’t have to keep it turnedContinue reading “Shut down”

These days getting to know her have been amazing. But here we are again, where she makes it painfully clear she doesn’t want to be with me. Ok I got the message loud and clear, you want space…..fine take it. Im tired of one moment we are in a great place, and then we’re not.Continue reading “Tired”

I’m trying to tell her that we need to figure out what we are doing before she is kicked out. All she can focus on is the kicked out part, not the us part. These last couple days talking with her have been amazing, I find myself getting lost in her beautiful eyes. I don’tContinue reading “Desisions”

“She was my dream. She made me who I am, and holding her in my arms was more natural to me than my own heartbeat. I think about her all the time. Even now, when I’m sitting here, I think about her. There could never have been another.” “The scariest thing about distance is thatContinue reading “Quotes for her”

This is by far the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do in my life thus far. Is to ignore the woman who still owns my heart, I treat her as if I don’t care. And force myself to not try anymore, I just have to keep reminding myself, if I was worth it IContinue reading “I’m trying”

I am done with crying, I am done with trying. I am not tired of loving you but I am tired of trying to make you love me back. I am tired of these long chases which lead me nowhere. I am tired of waiting for a rainbow to shine through us. I will neverContinue reading “I am done”

Tonight I told the woman I love and would do anything for, that I am done with hope. And I truly am, not because I don’t love her, but because she has still chosen to have him in her life. This will be the hardest part of my life, to remove her grasp on myContinue reading “Gone”

Done playing these childish games, one day you love me and the next you don’t. You can’t see far enough past your own pity party to see, I am here patiently waiting to help you every step of the way, to help you find yourself. My heart will not be a toy to be playedContinue reading “Games”

I woke up with a little stomach pain this morning nothing I couldn’t handle. But by the time I got to work it had intensified and I could not catch my breath. I started choking for air, to the point I was throwing up trying to breathe This worried me enough to go to theContinue reading “Hospital”